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Friday, June 1, 2012
"What~?"
I like it when you catch me looking at you.
and you look at me asking me, "what~?"
In that second, I'd wish it last a a bit longer.
Just me, you and a perfect moment.
9:10 PM
The thought of all the stupid things i've said.
I never meant to cause any trouble.
I never meant to do you wrong.
If i ever cause any trouble.
I never meant to do you harm.
But here i am in my little bubble.
2:26 PM
Thursday, May 31, 2012
When you understand something great, You realize how insignificant you are.
I will always remember this quote/prayer.
" Oh my Rabb,
If its good for me, Grant it to me with you Blessings.
If its bad for me, Grant me the patience to endure and overcome it.
You are the Disposer of all Affairs
To you I place my worldly affairs,
Only You know whats good for me,
and Only You know Me better than Myself."
The word "Rabb" (pronounce it as Robb) means Everything that is Divine. The English language is too shallow to describe that word. He has 99 names that Glorifies His Divinity, and all that is compressed into one word, "Rabb"
11:05 AM
Monday, May 21, 2012
The more pillows you have the lonelier you are.
Right now, At this moment, I feel that people has a lot of influence to the way I think. Yea, its better to not consider people's thought but its so hard to channel that out. Everyday, its like people just chips away bit and bits of you. And the worst part is that you have something in life you have to swallow like a bitter medicine, be it love, your personal achievements, your self reflection.... and you start finding small things to make life more bearable. You know that your self esteem becomes so low. There nothing to even smile about. You find ways to get all the problems out of your mind, but like a bad tattoo. It always there, as a reminder, as a ghost of your past, and an ugly reflection of yourself. And you would do anything to just find a factor in life at least its worth living for.
I hate chasing girls. I always have and always will, but its the "natural order" of things. The guy chases the girls and if the guy is actually up to par, (..externally, 90% of the time), he will always get the girl. And the rest of us, have to, figuratively, crawl our way without realizing that its a not gonna end good. do girls have this excessive need to feel that they are special. Maybe its just me =.=...
3:32 PM
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Ironic.
You tell me actions, speaks louder. But there's something about her words that hurt.
2:40 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
My annual(i think its annual) BBQ
Group shot!!
me and mirah
the khoolfaks..the core members?! hahah
Foxy's!!
BBQ!! this happen like two weeks ago. yea, late update.. been too busy with exams and my cousin wedding(more pics then) . the bbq was in total mess, everything was delayed. we ended up bbq-ing at 7 when we were suppose to do it at 6. anyways, it was fun towards the end when We played water bombs and threw it mostly at me(=.=)! someone threw peach tea and also chocolate at me..ergh!!
It was fun and memorable!!
9:59 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2011
really~!
Ok, this is a short one before the long one cause im going out later...heh!
I got this flattering comment from a girl just now. The story goes like this, she asked me whether I told Mirah if I like her. I said no. then she asked "why not?". i answered, " cause im not ready to take her as my gf or anything, just keep things mutual. Even if she found another guy or anything, its ok!". i continued " I want to ready for a girl cause i want it to be the last time, I want to have a really long relationship where the girl i chose will eventually be my forever. So to keep things in prospective, it is as if I have one ticket left and im going to use it wisely. Also, not getting into a relationship now is good cause i dont want the relationship to be no different to what i had in secondary school where i dont have anything to offer. Ya, some girls dont go for material goods but its a great feeling to be able to do anything, at any moment cause I can afford it. Even if it takes a long time, I believe there is someone out there for me. Call me old fashion, but I really think its really romantic."
She said," I like you amir.................. i mean like like you as a person".
"ya, i got it.." (=.=").
"Do you think there are other guys like you?"
in my mind was like.."woah, giving too much credit!?"
i replied " ya, of course there is, you just dont look hard enough''
All im saying is that, the dude can be handsome, rich and everything but its the lonesome ones who know the value of companionship and finding someone who is lonely inside is to me pretty hard to find.
Hahaha..plus I already got a plan on how im going to propose to her...thinking too far much!! HAHAHAHAHAH...( honestly sometimes i think im like a girl)..
Going to start a new catch phrase..L.M.L..(love my life, yosxz)
12:50 AM
Sunday, June 12, 2011
When life starts to teach, you better shut up and learn!!
Trust. that is the most fragile word I know. Of course everyone know the meaning of trust, but does everyone know the value of it? The effort one has to do to keep that trust. Trust like reputation, takes only one big realization and its gone.
Why I blog about this today is that, when someone says he or she has trust issues about other people, that is really secondary school stuff. That is just between words. He/she cheated on me, so I got trust issues that is the usual issue. No doubt that is hard but there is even worst. Imagine its a close friends, spouse or siblings and put in money in the situation. When one cheats on the other and left the 'victim' to fend for his own. when lawyers are in play. thousands of dollars are at risk and all are under your name. To me that is when one learns the real meaning of trust.
It makes you think, how can one find a friend that understand trust the way that you do. The truth is you cant. Trust is like a leap of faith and hope that someone will be there for you if you fall. Of course you cant see it in school environment where people just bitch around, but in the real world where anyone can just disappear and leave you, seriously what can you do?
"being kind to another is being cruel to yourself"
10:43 PM
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